Nov 8, 2024 | Journal
Sow… (Sowing some thoughts and dreams …)
It still amazes me how spirit (ancestors, friends and loved ones who’ve passed) communicates, shows me signs, leaves a trail of breadcrumbs for me to follow to understand life more, me more and to heal my own issues and those along my karmic ancestral line!
So I’ve spent many years pursuing a career in engineering focused roles, while secretly delving into the magical world of spirit, therapy, self-discovery, healing and connection with others in the 3D world and those beyond the vail.
It’s taken a great deal for me to come out of what I call the ‘Spooky Closet’, to share my gifts, abilities, thoughts and knowledge about extra sensory experiences, activities and guidance with others and the world at large.
I’ve never been afraid of ‘what’s out there’ but I have had fears about admitting that I know what’s out there!
Spirit led me to understand why this is, so that I can be free of that fear. So my Grandmother was Scottish and I know that a lot of my ability comes from her and along this ancestral line from her mother and before.
When I was young my Grandmother constantly banned me from doing any spiritual awareness activities. I didn’t understand why at the time as I watched her reading the tea leaves and watched my mother reading cards psychically. She repeated it so many times that I realized recently that I needed to release this, as I’d almost been bound to restrict my abilities (for my own safety it seems). As Dumbledore says ‘Words, in my not so humble opinion, are our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury and remedying it.’ It can also set the conditioning of what our most fundamental beliefs are in life, governing and dictating our behaviors, beliefs, manifestations and relationships for the rest of our lives!!
So – very fortunately I was led to awareness of this restriction within me, through certain video’s I watched, dreams I had and inner promptings to investigate certain things that were whispered into my ear by spirit. I was then able to do candle magick, therapy and shamanic practices on myself to relieve and release the spoken binds I’d found myself restricted by and the ancestral fears.
One thing I was led to look at was a lady called Helen Duncan. This lady was a Scottish woman with psychic abilities and she was tried in the late 1940’s against the Witchcraft laws from the 1700’s!! Can you believe that? I think it shook the Scottish people during that time and must have created a great deal of fear as she was prosecuted for knowing information about certain activities which took place in the second world war. It was widely publicized by the press in the newspapers and I realized, as my Grandmother was a young woman at this time, living in Scotland, she must have recognized how scary this was as a person who has awareness and sixth sensory abilities. The need for my Grandmother and Great Grandmother to hide their abilities must have been a great deal more prevalent than it had been for some years.
Recently science has shown us that the fears of our ancestors can literally be carried through the DNA for about 4 generations and I believe this happened with my abilities, but also through the words my Grandmother used in an effort to protect me and keep me safe.
If you can learn more about your ancestral history, even if it’s just a little bit, it’s so helpful to consider what strengths, weaknesses, fears, loves have you inherited. Be led by spirit and then you can heal any recurring patterns through the line so that you can heal the line for the younger generation and heal the line of those in spirit.
There are shamanic processes that allow you to heal the ancestral lines and many ways to heal any fears or limiting beliefs in each of us so that we can shine our light in the world.
There are many forms of healing taking place in the world right now around subjects which we have previously received persecution. We are all souls trying to do the very best with what we’ve got, what we’ve experienced and what we think we can have in our lives. The more you understand and heal yourself, the more you can experience peace, compassion and acceptance for others around you.
Sep 25, 2024 | Journal
Sow….
(Sowing some thoughts and dreams ….)
Going through a big life change? Going through several big life changes?
I may have mentioned this before but within the space of a year, I sold a house I’d lived in for 17 years, bought a new house, got made redundant, started a new business (leaving behind a 20 year + career path in corporate manufacturing and engineering environments), had a major life changing operation that included removing some organs, changed my health status, broke up with my boyfriend, broke up with a close life long friend and a very close family member was diagnosed with cancer. These are the key elements of what I can remember – the top-level stuff. As part of all of this I’d been doing ‘the work’ on past trauma’s, issues and removal of limiting beliefs for several years, I’d been in regular extreme physical pain for the 4 / 5 years leading up to this and had been ploughing on positively through life through some very tough stuff.
The reason I am saying this is to state – I get it. Pretty much whatever someone is going through – I get it – that’s just in one year alone, I went through all sorts prior to that.
What’s interesting is – is that once you’ve been through big shifts and changes you can be impatient for the new life to begin – the one that’s bound to be better, bound to be more fulfilling than all of that other stuff you’ve just been through. But it only will be if you’ve learnt from what’s happened, if you’ve made the shifts and changes so that you don’t just keep repeating the same thing over and over again. That’s a point I wanted to make, but I also wanted to make that point that it’s ok to rest!!! We tend to put a time limit on resting – this urgency that if we don’t keep producing and outputting then it won’t be ok! When you’ve had major life changes – lots of chemicals can be released into your body – cortisol, adrenaline – things that help you jump into action, to fight, flight or freeze and these can take months to get out of your system. If you’re like me and you’re stepping away from a 20 year career – that’s a big ship to turn! You don’t just suddenly stop being that person, changing the way you live, your habits, your patterns, it takes time for your brain to integrate everything – you aren’t just a brand new person over night – you have to create new habits, new ways of being.
I realized the other day – I’d actually gone through physical torture from my own body for years – repeated intense pain that had isolated me and impacted on my life so extremely and I realized that was actually a lot to get over – I’m well and healthy now, but there was still a residue of reservation, hesitance, lower self confidence and many other aspects to remove now that I was free to live my life as I wished again.
The other thing is when we go through a big life change, it doesn’t just impact on us – it impacts on all of the people around us and doesn’t always gain the responses we expect! When we expect people to be happy for us, there are those that will be triggered by our success, or our changes, or even the plans to change. If we’re following a soul purpose path people may reduce what you are doing to not being a big deal, try to copy what you’re doing or hide your gifts from others – that’s been one of my biggest realizations recently – that as a character, or what I do – these things have both been hidden by others who are unwilling to share me as they want the attention for themselves in some way. When you’re a sensitive person with an open loving heart, this can all be shocking to realize. It can be difficult to work out who is on your side and you have to be careful to recognize those who are genuinely supporting and loving you and those who are living in their own fears and sense of lack.
My point is – it’s so important to be compassionate, patient and kind to yourself when you’re going through huge life changes – as you build healthy boundaries, establish your new life, your new you. It’s no small feat foxglove friends.
With a loving heart,
Rose x
Sep 25, 2024 | Journal
Sow….
(Sowing some thoughts and dreams ….)
I feel truly blessed to have some really wonderful, deep and meaningful conversations with people in my life. This year these deep and meaningful conversations have quite often come from new friendships I’ve begun forming, which I realize have come about as friends who no longer resonate with me (we won’t go into that right now) have moved out of my life.
I have just had one of these very profound conversations and have found myself listening from my heart to words that have resonated so well with me that it’s created a shift as to how I’m going to progress with the following days of my life. It’s not only taken me back to remembering some initial spiritual practices I learnt when very first actively practicing spiritual habits, but it’s also helped to substantiate little notions that have been cropping up for me for a couple of weeks.
Firstly – isn’t it amazing how a conversation from the heart can impact on you – and I don’t mean one of romance and roses, I mean speaking genuinely with time and energy openly exchanging between two people – I tend to think maybe there is little to compare as being so powerful on a day-to-day level with another person. What a gift to feel so connected!
And that’s part of this – we all want to feel more connected, and we all want to feel more satisfied and satiated by the life we live in, and this conversation reminded me how to do this – which is what I want to talk about now….
We have so much data and learning and input and an abundance of things available to us in the western world – music, sounds, plants, wildlife, visual things such as films and tv programmes!
It all wizzes by us, all being the things we want, the things we don’t want – but all so much that we loose love for the little things.
I have some friends who love Lichen’s – these are tiny little bits of fauna that grow on rocks or fences or tree trunks (there’s probably more to it as well, but I haven’t studied them myself) – they’re tiny though and my friends just love them, they look at them, appreciate them and seek to understand them and enjoy them. It’s inspirational because it’s what people who feel a great sense of satisfaction, depth and wholeness in life do – they take the time to appreciate the things they love. They don’t buy into the ‘whizzing’, they make their own pace, step out of the rapids of life and choose a nice stream to spend the majority of their life floating down so that they can apply their time, love and attention to things that really matter to them – one thing at a time, to truly notice it, learn it and absorb it.
This can include a ritualistic approach to ensure regular time is given to what it is that you love, so that you can honor and value it.
I have learnt so much through my life – I’ve got two university degree level qualifications, psychological, holistic and spiritual qualifications, Luna (my spaniel) and I have got sniffer dog awards from bronze through to gold, I continually learn more with my violin – I don’t often stop to appreciate what I have right now (I do love learning). In this world though we can get caught up in the rapids of the corporate lifestyle (is how I put it!) – we can keep being productive, keep feeling the need to do more, to have more, to complete more, rather than just enjoying what we already have in simple ways.
So tomorrow I’m going to start a new routine which will involve appreciating my body more by giving it more exercise and feeding it healthy foods. I’ll give thanks to spirit, my guides, God and everyone who help me every day (which I do every day – but I will be more mindful and honoring of them – I may include a short meditation to truly connect) and to honor how much I love working with tarot I will start an exercise of living with one of the tarot cards each day beginning with the major arcana to fully embody and experience each of the tarot cards in my life. So tomorrow I will start off with the Fool card – stepping out in wonder with an open heart full of hope and innocence of all the world has to offer. I will live with this concept in my heart all day.
I think it would be nice if everyone considered what they love and who they love – to apply a bit more time, energy and ritualistic honoring of that blessing in their lives.
With a loving heart,
Rose x
Sep 8, 2024 | Journal
Sow….
(Sowing some thoughts and dreams ….)
Becoming seen! Seen? As in – to see me? But I see you now – you’re standing there?
To be really seen is to have all of you exposed to those around you or the world (I don’t mean whipping all your clothes off – I mean removing the masks to reveal who you really are on the inside).
We can go through our entire life not revealing elements of ourselves to people we know or to the world. I spent most of my life hiding my spiritual gifts – with the reasoning that I worked in a corporately professional role, with an engineering-based degree, surrounded by very logical, left brained people who wouldn’t value the creative, spiritual side of me at all – or so I thought. I spent my time projecting a sensible exterior, as best I could, as I was often criticized for being ‘not aggressive enough’ (I’d like to add that aggression is so very rarely the answer to anything) and it was with this very sensible, logical approach that I progressed in my career. Being professional isn’t the wrong thing to do, but it wasn’t a true reflection of me, that carried on through my personal life. When we create an image of ourselves for the world to see, for others to attach to – it creates a platform of safety for us to build relationships, careers, reputations – this is all very well and good, but It can make it quite hard to reveal other elements of yourself, so we can often keep these things secret. This might include ‘shadow side’ elements of ourselves, which maybe we don’t like or feel ashamed of.
I think within all of this – it’s about being true and honest with yourself – that’s the very hardest thing to do – to genuinely and lovingly accept yourself for all that you are. Once you can achieve that, then that is when the world really is truly your oyster because when you love and accept yourself fully it doesn’t matter so much what anyone else thinks or judges about you. It’s part of sifting out those that resonate with you and those that don’t – and we all have a soul tribe we can be part of – we don’t come here alone!
I hid the spiritual elements of myself for years because of how people reacted (I found people treated me like a performing monkey when they realized I could read their energy or talk to spirit and completely undervalued me – this was partly due to self-value issues which I needed to resolve), but I also needed to learn to trust those gifts myself.
When I first opened up to my gifts, about 20 years ago, with a very kind mediumship teacher called ‘Robert Brown’ recognizing that I had ability within me to work with spirit – my light seemed to burn brighter, and all sorts of things came to me in the middle of the night. I’d see people I didn’t know standing at the end of my bed, people shouting my name in the night – it was like a lid had been taken off the sensory ability I’d been given and my light was bursting out loud and clear, like a lighthouse in the dark. This was a part of me being seen – being seen by spirit. It all calmed down and reduced to a level in which I became more in control as time went on and I learnt how to pick up the phone to spirit and put it down when I wanted to live in the 3D world!
Over time I’ve learnt more about holistic health and spiritual practices, from shamanic journeying to past life regression to reprogramming your neuro pathways to create a better reality. With this I’ve built confidence about what I can do, learnt to trust it, learnt to trust myself and most of all – done the work to gain self-confidence, emotional resilience and self-love so that I can share my light with the world!
And – as I share my light in the 3D world I still get all sorts of people approaching me in an unwanted way, just like I did when I first opened up to spirit! Through technology I’ve had to learn who I want to ‘pick the phone up to’ and who I ‘need to put it down to’ (some unusual requests and comments come at you when you put yourself out there!!) – but I am courageous and brave and I wish to share my light and love with those seeking to live at a higher vibrational frequency and want to support mass consciousness with progressing as humankind!
How will you ever have you best life if you don’t embrace absolutely ALL of who you are?! You deserve to be seen and to live the fullest life you can with joy in your heart!
You can feel vulnerable when exposed but there’s nothing stronger than the power of love – whether that be love you’re sending out to others, receiving or love you have for your soul to be who YOU are. The more souls that wish to genuinely share their light – the more we will light up the dark spaces in the world to create a better way of living for all! The more soul’s that choose to clear away their hurts and pains from the past (this lifetime or past lifetimes!), the happier and healthier society will be, and we really will be stepping into the golden age of Aquarius!
If you’re reading this close to the time it was published, also know that Pluto is in retrograde to Capricorn for the last time in our lifetime! For the next two months it’s going to push us to remove obstacles that are preventing growth at a soul level, so prepare to be more seen my Foxglove Friends!
😊
Rose x
Sep 4, 2024 | Journal
Sow….
(Sowing some thoughts and dreams ….)
Once Upon A Time I was in China. Shanghai to be specific. I LOVE China. I’ve been a few times for my previous job as a Supply Chain Lead, but also I went for my 30th birthday to Beijing. It’s a real mixture of amazing history, architecture, beauty, magic and rubble in some places! The messy is often along side the beauty.
On this occasion I was in China with work and most people were too nervous to go out on their own, but not me, I couldn’t wait to explore! If I’m unsure of where I am and don’t have internet – I’ll often walk in straight lines until I learn the lay of the land back to my base.
During one of these walks I came up to a very busy road in which about 6 different roads came into a center, in which I wanted to get across. So imagine the busiest cross roads you’ve seen but the cross roads consist of about 6 to 8 roads rather than 4! There was a police man with a whistle and zebra crossings everywhere, but I had no idea what to do. (Isn’t it amazing how the simple task of crossing the road can seem daunting when there are different rules applied and you don’t know what they are!!)
Also – people in China drive quite differently and don’t necessarily stick to the same rules that those in Britain or America might.
I was lucky though as two elderly ladies came along. So at the side of the road stood me – a 6ft blonde haired lady (which is unusual in China and quite often people will want to have a photo with me like I’m a celebrity), with these two very petit 70+ aged ladies. I felt secure in this situation because I automatically assumed that they must totally know what they’re doing!! They looked very native to the area and I perceived that they had far more knowledge than I did about this situation.
So we stood there, with the traffic whizzing around us in all directions and then all of a sudden they decided to walk, so I stuck to them like glue and went with them!
Much to my horror – we ended up standing in the middle of the road with cars flying past us in all directions. My body knew it was bad because I started to shake! At this point the policeman started blowing his whistle and waving his arms about and had to stop the traffic to come out and get us! We then got escorted back to the start. Oh how my heart thundered away in my chest and utter confusion washed over me – why hadn’t these women who ‘looked’ like they knew what to do, known what to do!!!
Fortunately the very kind (and maybe angry policeman) escorted us across the road, so I did eventually make it to the other side.
What I’d say is be careful who you follow in life!!!!! Ha haaaa! They could end you up in a complete pickle and put you in a very undesirable situation. In life we often follow advice, suggestions or behaviors of others that we believe know better than us, but it’s important to always seek advice from experts or to follow your gut instinct. If it doesn’t feel right don’t do it, no matter who it is that is telling or encouraging you to do something.
So many people have opinion’s about what they think you should do and it will always be based on their own values, experiences, their own issues, fears and concerns. Talking about what is going on in life is a good thing, but it’s so important to make your own choices, decisions and opinions because what matters to you in life could be very different to that of others. What matters to you at a soul level, your soul purpose and your path need to be honored with what is true for you. So no matter how hard it is, follow your own path, using your own compass and you’ll have the happiest life for you!
Rose x
